Lady_Verny's blog: 10/06 missing u

I was so close to him. All i had to do was find the courage to tell him i love him. But I failed. I failed to let him know he meant the world to me. I failed to let him know that i would give my life for him. I failed to let him know i would kill myself to kiss him just one time. In the recent years, I have met many attractive boys, who dazzle and amaze but none fill the void created when i lost him forever. Why didn't i tell him, now he's gone forever. I hate myself. every chance I get, i fuck it up.... I just get the feeling that my life will always be full of suffering, so my purpose in life is to make others lives better, because i can't make my own better. The most beuatiful boy i ever knew, and i ruined it. Fuck. I Hate Myself. You Know Who You Are. If You Read This...Did You Ever Wonder...What If I Had The Guts To Tell You, 3 Years Ago. What If I Had The Guts To Tell You I Love You.