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I wonder if I'm just a fuck buddie to him, like come on, I have all these morals and I'm always happy, but the reasons for that are pretty much because of him, like i find myself thinking about if he TURNED ON HIS PHONE, or if hes thinking of me, or if he wants anything to do with me, like this is driving me insane, and im tired, like i really am, im tired of waiting for him, im tired of thinking of the WHYS like i swear theres prolly a million other girls out there like me thinking the same thingss.. but its just that when your with that one person, your world lightens up and those chores dont seem so hard, or that test is gonna be easy, you just change. I dont know why, but i know when im with him im just happy, like how i would be if i won a million dollars or something, but why.. why me? like im a scholar bitch in school and i admit it but like I was doing soo good before him and than he shows up and my happiness suddenly lives off or him. And now i think hes ignoring me, and plus hes older than me, and he has a life, and a steady girlfriend that livess with him, so its really hard to talk to him, its really hard to see him, and hes such a fucking player, and that huurrttss not to mention that his woman fuckin hates me and she doesnt even know me, or what happened in fact and if she did he would prolly get in trouble, and ive tried to stop talkin to him and ive tried to leave him alone, but hes like the batteries to my light man, he really is, and i dont know what to do. Im so passionate about him , and i swear I love him, but what iff he doesnt feel tha same way? Nott sure what to doo.... Brrokken*...